Would you leave me if I told you what I've done?
And would you leave me if I told you what I've become?
'Cause it's so easy to say it to a crowd
But it's so hard, my love, to say it to you out loud

Because I think that if we go away to someplace together, I'm afraid that, ah, one day, maybe not today, maybe, maybe not tomorrow either, but one day suddenly, I may begin to cry and cry so very much that nothing or nobody can stop me and the tears will fill the room and I won't be able to breath and I will pull you down with me and we'll both drown. 

And leaving you (there are no words to untangle it)
Your life, fearfull and immense and blossoming,
so that, sometimes frustated, and sometimes
    understanding
Your life is sometimes a stone in you, and then, a star.

                                            Rainer Maria Rilke

   "Enquanto você está por aí, sua vida também está. Assim com você derrama amor, carinho e atenção sobre seu marido, sua esposa, seus pais, filhos e amigos que o cercam, tem de fazê-lo igualmente com sua vida, porque ela é sua, é você, e está sempre lá dando força para você, torcendo por você, mesmo quando você se sente fraco. Desisti da minha vida por um tempo, mas o que aprendi é que, mesmo quando isso acontece, e especialmente quando isso acontece, a vida nunca, jamais, desiste de você. A minha não desistiu. E nós estaremos ali, um pelo outro, até osmomentos finais, quando vamos nos olhar e dizer: "Obrigado por ter ficado até o fim!
   E esta é a verdade."

Cecelia Ahern

A vez da minha vida

  Eu sinto sua falta.Sinto tanto a sua falta...estar com você, conversar com você, te contar o que acontece na minha no meu dia e na minha vida...Mas aí eu percebo que eu não posso senti falta do que eu nunca tive, não é? Você não é assim...a gente nunca foi assim...Why would that change now?

When you push so hard on yourself you need no one to push you for anything, but you also don't know when to stop, and for that you need someone.

And you say you miss the old you sometimes. But why? Because the old you was all rigth, all decided, all certain, all contained, full of fears that paralyzed, full of halters, mental ones. That girl with few friends only, always at home, speaking little and low voice, no riks, no risking anything. Always reading and watching movies, always visiting and picturing realities where life happened with adventure.

You say you miss this girl. Maybe, when things are too fast. But this girl is so far behind. One day she took a risk and never stopped. She decided to risk, I don't know when or why anymore, and maybe she liked the power it brings, but the thing is she decided to live. And maybe she wants the old girl sometimes because she let go of her fears, and once she did that there is nothing to hold on to, nothing to hold you back. You enter a free fall with new possibilities you didn't know existed and see yourself as if you're in the middle of the sea. In the sea when there's no float anymore, so either you float by yourself or you swim in the water. You find balance not to sink. balance. Equilíbrio em meio à insanidade. Sereníssima.